Dark, twisted, and hungry.
Creative Staff
Story/Art: Madoguchi Isogu
What They Say:
A new star draws somber erotica!!
Content: (please note that content portions of a review may contain spoilers):
Originally serialized in Comic Shitsurakuten from the January 2026 installment, “The Moment I Felt Alive” is a twenty-four-page story from creator Madoguchi Isogu, who has no other works on the service. With a lot of the creators I like engaging in areas I tend to avoid. I went looking for something new, and a creator with nothing else on the service is an easy one to check out and see what you can discover. The initial artwork and tease made it sound at least a bit interesting. There’s a lot to like with the artwork as well, with a more natural approach to a lot of things and playing with some familiar concepts. I mean, just the preview image of our leading lady with her outfit and hair basically made this a must-read chapter.
There’s a fascinating darkness about this story, and it’s not even because it takes place at a funeral visitation. It’s here that we’re introduced to twenty-something Tsujino as she attends the event, as the man who died was her high school teacher. While it’s not completely clear, it looks like she had a twisted relationship with him while she was still in school and the two had sex a lot. She’s fascinated in seeing the woman that he was married to at this event, and her kids, and imagines what it must have been like to be married to him. There are several ways to interpret it, but she gets sidetracked fairly quickly when another student she knew from then, Fujimiya, shows up as well. The two talk about having missed the recent reunion a few years back, but he really surprises Tsujino when he says that he knows what happened in the past and had seen them.
She knows quickly what he’s really after for his silence, which leads them to a nearby hotel where he intends to basically hate fuck her. There’s a neat way that Tsujino is presented in this, kind of fatalistic in a way, but the darker things get, the more turned on she gets. And it just drives him harder with her. The two have an incredibly intense session together, and we see how he kind of stalked her at school a bit since he was into her, but he doesn’t believe she had an interest in him because of what she was doing with the teacher. Which, as I said, we don’t know the true contours of but it was definitely grooming and control. So he doesn’t want to hear any of it here, but she’s making really dark comparisons to the now-dead teacher, and seemingly wanting Fujiymiya even more because of his roughness and intensity. You get a good sense that Tsujino is just sleepwalking through life, and only dark things like this make her feel alive.
In Summary
Stories with a “somber” aspect can be pretty difficult to pull off, but there are some really interesting layers being shown here, even if they aren’t being tugged at fully. The result is that we get something that’s dark and twisted in a lot of ways, but it has a fascinating heart to it as well. It’s really just a story of two very damaged people in different ways that don’t know how to interact “normally” anymore. The result is something that has a bleak and dark edge, but it draws you in so well with what it does, leaving you drawn to the inherent sadness of it, but also as it leans toward depravity. The artwork captures it so well, especially with Tsujino’s outfit and what’s underneath it, and just the beauty of the bleak expressions.
Content Grade: B+
Art Grade: A-
Text/Translation Grade: B+
Age Rating: 18+
Released By: FAKKU
Release Date: September 2025
MSRP: FAKKU Subscription
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